I started this post months ago, and I’ve revised it and revised it and revised it ever since (and I’ll probably have revised it a few more times before it goes live – it has had 25+ revisions so far). I was initially considering quitting blogging entirely — I’ll be honest, the fact the top searches that land people here deal with Christian Science and death got to be more than a little depressing, but then a talk with my husband changed my mind, he said I was too focused on where I had been, and needed to talk more about where I was going and where I hoped to be – just the other day he reminded me that I can “write about something other than Christian Science!” I plan to, I’m working my way there.
I started this blog to chronicle my journey away from Christian Science, and somewhere along the way I seem to have gotten turned around and gone straight off the deep end. On one hand while it has been interesting to see where I have been, I’m going to try and move forward with where I’m going and would like to go. I’m also insatiably curious about Ms. Eddy’s inspirations (or liberal borrowing if you will), and every now and again I have conversations with Christian Scientists that make me want to scream (or blog).
I never dreamed this blog would have such an impact on my life, or the lives of so many others. I’ve done a lot of thinking about Christian Science, what it means/meant to me, how it has impacted those I care about and the world. I’ve picked apart Ms. Eddy’s prose, had insightful conversations, and read about and studied Christian Science more than I ever did even at the peak of my desire to be a “good” Christian Scientist.
I’ve been thinking a lot recently about what I believe now. I won’t go back to Christian Science, and I’m fairly certain that regular church attendance (in any denomination) is not in my future.
There are so many ideas that I would like to explore further in some context, but I must be realistic, as I also have a growing list of projects around the house. One of my goals is to move away from navel-gazing at Christian Science, so I’m going to move on to pondering the seemingly endless possibilities that the universe has put out before me.
Apparently there is a movement, Possibilianism, which is based on a similar idea. From their website:
- “Our ignorance of the cosmos is too vast to commit to atheism, and yet we know too much to commit to a particular religion. A third position, agnosticism, is often an uninteresting stance in which a person simply questions whether his traditional religious story (say, a man with a beard on a cloud) is true or not true. But with Possibilianism I’m hoping to define a new position — one that emphasizes the exploration of new, unconsidered possibilities. Possibilianism is comfortable holding multiple ideas in mind; it is not interested in committing to any particular story.”
I think I’m open to being a possibilian, I like stories, and I think it would work nicely with my grass-roots movement that never really got going. Things to think about.
I would like to make everyone aware that as of October 2013 I am changing the regularly-scheduled posts: there will be a new post on the FIRST SUNDAY of every month, and as often as inspiration hits and I have the time to get to my computer. I’m aiming for random Sundays, Wednesdays and Fridays, we will see what works.
I’m not sure what my next year of blogging will bring, but I welcome the adventure.
I will now close with “a few kind words” and a cookie recipe, because really, everyone needs at least one good cookie recipe. Continue reading